Ain't about you anymore.

Life's been good. Though a few fights with N, but well things are fine now.
I've been working, waiting for school to start in October. Can't wait to graduate in April.

Been partying a little more than expected, headache when I think about alcohol now.
Lousy me.

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Freezing in office now. Literally doing nothing, gonna meet Huiyu &Muchen tonight :) Can't wait for another gossiping session! HAHA.

Sometimes I swear I hate N so much. So annoyed by his unreasonable and immature thinking. Pffft.

I said I'd leave when I am prepared to, but I guess the day will never come.

WTF I JUST WROTE LIKE A VERY VERY VERY LONG POST AND IT'S GONE NOW.

IIP

Pretty much, I hate attachment. 450 bucks and I work like dog. Fml seriously. So yeah, I have ended work and is on my way home now. I guess right after I bath I would sleep. What a life. Ever since attachment starts, I barely had time to talk to N. In the past I could still talk to him untill 3am. Now, I barely talk or half an hour and I fell asleep with the phone in my hand. And N has to hang up, almost every single time he purposely kept quiet to let me sleep. Gawd, why is life like this now. 4 weeks had past, 12 more weeks to go. I shall hang on, just get it over and done with. Right after that I can enjoy my 3months holiday and get back to school and finish my last semester before I graduate. I can't wait to end this. For goodness sake, I don't even know why I took up this course. Should have go into S's line. I rather be in office than to run around to many places and give health screening. I miss N so much now ):

fear

When I am gone, all I ask for is my love ones to be fine. As the day gets nearer, I find myself living in fear. Though I am grateful that I have N to go through all with me, but time to time I feel like I am a burden to him.

ORD LOR!

So...2 years of school have officially ended yesterday at 3pm. ORD LOR! Left with the last year, half a year attachment and I'd only be back in school for the last half of the year. HELL YEAH, I AM FINALLY GOING TO END THIS SHIT DIPLOMA.

I'm supposed to be going Bangkok with the awesome people, however there's some riot going on there right now and the plan is on hold. I'd rather throw away the 300 than to risk my life there. But still...I feel like going as well! ):

Aiya whatever la, we'll see how things goes.

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So if I'm not going bangkok, from now till the 7th march I don't have any plan at all. Pffft, I don't know what to do other than playing mahjong every night. I think that's gonna be my plan. Play mahjong untill the morning, wake up at 5pm. Then wait untill 11plus in the night again then start playing mahjong again. Awesome life huh (:

K off to dinner now, then come back and decides whether tonight mahjong is still on!

What can I do to forget.

I just want to pretend nothing has happen, and we live like we used to be. I know I've been telling you this over and over again, but I guess it's still me who can't get over it.

I don't blame you, just blame myself for telling you. Why am I so dumb, since you forgot what happen that night I should just keep my mouth shut.

Why did I get emotional all over again and let you see it.

Why, why why. I am just so dumb.

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Betrayed? That's not exactly it. I don't know what should I categorise it into.

Why can't I just forget about it? I'd do anything, just for it to be out of my memory.

Every single time it came into my mind,part of my heart falls apart. It's slowly killing me on the inside. But it's okay...I'll be fine. As long as we're still together, I'll be fine. Because slowly, my heart dies and eventually this incident mean nothing to me.

You asked if being with you was hard, I'd say it's harder to live without you.

This time round, let me be stupid. Just let me cry another round, and I'd be perfectly fine.

Party!

It's 2.44am and I'm supposed to be asleep. There's still school later and I think I'm going to be late like usual. Urgh, I can't seem to be early for school, but I can be early for everything else. I swear if you were to ask me up for something else at 630am, I can be on time. But school at 915am, I'd be damn late.

I'm getting a little sleepy now. Shall finish this up fast and head to bed.

N's birthday is coming! To be exact, tomorrow! Can't wait to have some fun.

I guess it'd be at powerhouse? Seeing how things are planned and everything, it's pretty confirmed. But hell, I don't want to end up at the dance floor. My purpose of going is to make sure he doesn't fight, and to get him home safely. I'm sure he'd end up drunk.

But his is plan is otherwise, he wants to get me drunk and bring me to the dance floor. Make sure I dance with him, and that's his birthday wish. Like...what?! Everyone in this world knows I don't dance, they know I'd end up standing there even if you pull me down. Somehow, he knows if I'm drunk there'd be chances that I'll dance with him. Bastard boyfriend.

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Shopping for New Year is done. Meeting Stacy to walk around on Saturday afternoon and I've booked an appointment for manicure at Far East on Tues! :) I'm like a happy girl.

N says I act like a queen now. Sibei song! Hehehe. It is only during New Year I can have all these shopping and manicure.

Okay, happy girl is going to sleep now and enjoy my weekends! I'll start partying on my own right after school later!